Meredith Miller is a YouTuber who is the child of a narcissistic mother. Her channel is Inner Integration.
In this video she speaks about an ayahuasca trip she took at a retreat in the Amazon. Ayahuasca is a hallucinogenic brew made from the bark and stems of a tropical South American vine, mixed with other psychotropic plants, used especially in shamanistic rituals by certain Amazonian Indian peoples.
This is the first video of two parts. In the first she talks more generally of the spiritual effects of narcissism on society and in the second part she talks more about her personal experience of being in a narcissistic family. A third video talks about using Ayahuasca safely.
At 7.03 she begins to talk about the medicine taking effect.
8.45 she talks about how she saw the mind control/programming from the narcissistic abuse.
At 6 minutes the trip begins. She speaks of feeling the coldness, loneliness and the pain of her past trauma. At around 19 minutes she talks about PTSD.
Here, Meredith Miller advises on how to stay safe if wanting to use Ayahuasca as it is not suitable for everyone and there are some disreputable people in that world.